In the outskirts of a little town in southern England lies a cemetery. It's a beautiful cemetery with tall, proud trees and beautiful rosebeds along little paths of gravel. Here is my home. Here I spend my days, alone and unseen. In the center of the cemetery, right in the middle , where the sun shines all day and the sweet smell of roses is almost more than you can bear, is a little angel made of marble. He holds out his hands like he's praying to God and all his children in heaven to take him away, let him in. But like me he's bound to stay. Engraved in the stone is a name.

Christina Hayes
24.07.1965- 24.12.2001
We will never forget you

I've been dead five months. I led a happy life, just me and my six year old son Justin. We hadn't care in the world while we had each other. That's why it hurt so much to leave him. He's all alone now and the world isn't a kind place for him now. He visits me every day though. He's here now, talking to me although he can't see me and doesn't know I'm here. I want so much to touch him, comfort him but all I can do is listen
- Mommy it's me. I brought you some lillies because I know you like them.
Remember mommy, when we went to the park last spring and you showed me the lillies that were blooming all around the park, and told me that they were made from the feathers of all the angels who are watching over us and you told me that I never have to fear anything because they will always be there to protect me. Remember mommy?
I remember.
- And remember when I fell off my bicycle and hurt my knee and you kissed me and told my it was going to be okay, and gave me ice-cream because I was so brave and such a good boy. Your little hero. Remember mommy?
I remember Justin.
- I'm so scared mommy. Aunt Elsie says I'm a bad boy. Am I mommy? She says I don't deserve to live with her and uncle David. She says she only lets me because she gets paid for it. Oh mommy why did you go?. Why did you leave me? Remember mommy, when daddy left you said it was for the best because now we could be together, just us. You said you'd always be there for me mommy, remember?
I remember.
He's crying now.
-But you're not here for me mommy, and I think the angels are gone too. You told me that I should never break a promise and I never have, but you did mommy. You promised me we'd always be together, always. But you left me mommy and I'm all alone and frightened. Remember mommy you told me that nothing could take us away from each other, remember mommy?
I remember.
The sun is setting now and the trees cast their shadow on his grief-stricken face. He's shaking uncontrollably and the tears keep streaming down his face.
My poor baby boy.
-Mommy I'm so sorry. I'm sorry, I didn't know it was loaded mommy, I swear. I just wanted to show you how big and manly I was. I just wanted you to know you could rely on me. I just wanted to show you…I just wanted…I'm so sorry. I love you mommy.
I know.
He's lying down in the grass now, beneath my stone. The night has come and a single moonbeam lights up his face. He's asleep. My poor baby boy. I know it was an accident, he would never have wanted to harm me. And I'm sorry. Sorry that I had to leave you, sorry that you have to bear this burden all your life, but I will be there for you and I love you.
I forgive you.