Every time I find myself
thinking about you, I would..
take the knife beside me and..
hurt me till all I feel is
physical pain
I don´t know how many scars
I already have printed all over my body.
Every 5 minutes or so..
I´d start thinking about you again..
don´t know how much blood I´ve left in my body
but that´s not what hurts the most..
What hurts the most..
is knowing I won´t see you again..
What hurts the most..
is knowing I don´t have much time left
is knowing.. I won´t survive..
What I´m doing to myself isn´t something normal
but I just want people to see..
me from the outside as how I feel on the inside
this is causing my life..
but I´ve lost all the reasons in life..
I guess it´s time for me to go..
somewhere peaceful..
somewhere nice..
somewhere where I wouldn´t feel..
so horrible..
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