Life of the Party

Breathe, breathe
I tell myself to breathe.
Things haven’t changed much,
just everything is not the same as before.
Hide I need to hide.
No! Dance, do anything to lie to them.
Who?
Why, the people you don’t like,
have to make them like me! Silly!
Of course they know,
who know?
Again,
the people I really don’t like!
Why are you laughing?
I’m not, you silly thing, can’t you see I’m crying?
Dying for a smoke fag shag roll in the hay
With who?
The stud by the wall,
he’s shallow enough to call over.
Roll over and I take you where you have never gone before!
Dirty little sh…ahhh, daaarrlinnng! I missed you at Jiffy’s party!
You were dead last week? Really? You look great though, pale is in this year,
you lucky thing!
Drink my “drunken porn star”, though I’m drowning here.
Leave then…
Of course I won’t! Are you nuts! And miss all this fun?