Your fault

I can not see, I can not hear

I can not cry, I can not fear

My heart is burnt, my soul is dead

My voice is silent, my mind mislead



This is your fault, this was your game

I hate your voice, I hate your name

I won’t forgive you, I never will

Strange thing is, I love you still


Too little, Too late

How could I have let you slip away
I still remember as if it were yesterday
Taking your life into your own hands
All because of my crazy demands
Why did you have to die
You left me with nothing but tears when I cry
Maybe it was destiny, maybe it was fate
I was only a little too late
I loved you with all my heart
And you promised we'd never be apart
So where are you now when I need you the most
Are you with the angels
Do you still love me now that you're a ghost
I think about you every hour of every day
Wishing you had never gone away
Am I going crazy or just a little insane
What will take away this pain
Maybe a bullet to the brain
Or just a few walks down memory lane

Forgotten Voice

I find a reason to end it all,
it reaches over my self-built wall.
These sights that I do not wish to see
keep pulling apart waht is left of me.
I still feel this way from my last fall.
I am crying out to end it all.
I cannot grasp to my false hope,
as I let go of my life when I can no longer cope.
I now feel that here is where I do not want to stay.
My screams inside are what I cannot say.
The horrors I have seen, forever stuck in my mind
with all the pain I cannot leave behind.

The silence now will overtake
a life that I cannot continue to fake,
but there is still to much left for me to take
in a life that I already forsake.
This pain is what I feel,
it maks is all seem so unreal.
A dream I have of my final deal
has nothing left inside to reveal.
My life has lost all charm,
it leads back to all my harm.

My past retreats into the void of my mind,
with so many nameless thoughts left beside
in a life I no longer want to find.
I cannot bring this back inside of me.
I continue to fall from what I used to be,
tuck it down inside so noone can see.
I hear my failures calling me back
to stop my heart in its' track.

My one way out is in my head,
as I still cannot let go of what you said.
My wish for death is always fed,
untill the only thing left is to be dead.

I feel so Deep

deep down inside, no one understands.
I feel for this boyl like the sense of my own two hands.
I won't get to see him for quite some time,
But I still pray for him, he should be doing just fine.
Will he forget about all the times we spent together?
I know I won't; I will remember him forever.
Has my face become a-faint?
Not his. He still remains a saint.
Has he met another girl; fallen in love?
I won't. He will always remain my dove.
Christmas is way too long to wait,
but I have to find out, is this fate?
It can't be. I've only known him for a short while,
But I can't resist that beautiful smile…
I hope I will to talk to him as much as I can.
The way I feel about his heart is, well, I'm a huge fan….
I will do anything it takes to stay within his heart;
I will die for him – as long as it doesn't keep us apart….


I dream of you



A stormy, dark and dreary day
and not a thing to do
but close my eyes and drift away
in fantasies of you.
Behind the misty veil of sleep;
beyond my heart's despair,
with secret promises to keep
I find you waiting there.

Across the golden meadowland
and through the wooded glen
we walk together, hand in hand.
We talk a bit and then
beneath the starry summer sky;
beside the crystal sea,
the hero in this dreamer's lie,
you give your love to me,

And when it comes time to rise
illusions fade away,
and all is lost that satisfies
and holds my grief at bay,
but in my depths the fires burn,
your image locked within,
awaiting still my soul's return
to love you once again.