And What Did I Gain?


Tonight was the perfect night to begin.
Out partying with my friends,
felt like committing a sin.
When I swallowed it I didn’t know
that that one would be,
my ticket to go.

Yes. It was my last pill,
and strong enough to kill.

My last joy,
my last pain.
And What Did I Gain?

My last smile,
my last frown,
Going up or down?

But no. It was worse than that.
After this I never feared hell,
the pain, sadness or smell.
I can’t even hear the boarding bell,
listen to you or tell…

I’m barely awake,
and the days go by.
I can’t breathe by myself
…I can’t even cry.

Why?
Why?
I want to die.


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